ytd work was slow. i dunno y. myabe i'm da one who's slow. *shrugz* anyway dear came to fetch me again. went to central to pay my bills. *hmm* n i really tink m1 sux. once my contract ends i'll get a singtel one. =/ anyway was lookin @ bedsheets. *hmm* the date is really near now. *haiz* but didnt c anytin we like. dear still prefers the Elle one we saw @ Bugis Seiyu. anyway went home for dinner. *hmm* both of us had no appetite. *haiz* dear receieved a call n had to help his cousin. :/ so left me @ home watchin tv.
was tryin very hard to stay awake till dear comes back. but s soon s he got home, i got 'shot'. well, i was tryin very hard not to slp so kept my eyes on the tv but then dear's mum n sis was arrangin the invitation cards. (-_-")
i didnt noe n y muz he gimme tt attitude. s if i noe wad is happenin in da other rm?
n lookin @ the list, realised so many pplz didnt invite. n is their relatives.
has it gotta do wif me? i merely rewrite the name list coz it was so messy. then? now alot pplz not included my fault?!
(-.-") how come so many tables?
*shrugz* so now is in need of extra tables n already not enough tables to spare n i'm really caught inb/w 'to invite my colleagues' n 'not to invite my colleagues'.
so paisei when they keep tokin bout my big day.
really had tis urge to withdraw last min.
everytin is makin me sick. includin pplz.
y everyone bo chap? n y do they ask me Qs which i dunno? y do they have to tink tt my memory is gd n tt i can remember wadever tings i need to get? y muz we hold everytin till last min?
i tot shd ask my mum? but my mum is askin me s well. so wad?! my mum is ask me n his mum oso askin me. then? there's a ting call T-E-L-E-P-H-O-N-E. besides, how i noe wad my ma wans n wad his ma wans? i'm not a mind-reader.
i really feel like doin the disappearin act on the day itself, or even start a few days b4 the actual day. maybe even today.
work. i'm pissed. dun ask me about wad. same usual stuffs: things i wasnt taught/guided n i'm suppose to do it.
so? i'm not a manualised. neither am i gonna do tings tt becomes a prob to others. nor do i have the slightest idea on how to go about them.
someone better dun pissed me off.
i dun feel like doin anytin. not even listenin to music nor online. i juz wanna slp n not tink of anytin. wish i could do it. but we cant escape from reality. maybe i juz need time to tink. n i juz hope tt someone can ans my Qs instead of me answerin them.
maybe i juz cant fit into tis place. =/ pplz r nice but sometimes some tings, cant b help, are heard. so? of coz i get angry n cant voice out. already a small office n i dun wan any politics to start. or already exist w/o me knowin? wadever~ i dun feel like sayin any now. n i'm sick of workin already. =X really. coz i've been wearin bermudes n t-shirt. today i didnt even bother to make-up n juz wore my glasses. SICKENING
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