Tuesday, November 30, 2004

aint gettin anywhere~

dunno y keep tinkin bout myself~ nothin but myself~ or shd i say i'm beginnin to worry? or am i juz plain not confident bout my future? *think*

com was down for so many days~ even i myself forgot wad i did....or maybe to tell da truth, i dun wanna remember a single ting~! juz wished tt i have amnesia sometimes~ *ponders*

took leave on thurs to go book my final theory *geez* i tink i'm gonna change the date...30th dec~! OMG~! no way am i gonna wait till so far~

-went to chk @ www.ssdcl.com.sg-

FCUK~! latest is Jan~! wad da~! now traffic police no longer has the rights...every bookin has to b made thru ssdc~! FCUK~! no more earlier dates~ mann~ ssdc is juz plain $$$-sukers~! no way am i gonna b a student there~! *hmph* forget it~ *haiz*

fri was kinda boliao~ walk over to ICS after work to look for dear~ he hafta work late tt day~ or shd i say he will b workin late for the next few weeks~ anyway was kinda like doin nothin~ sittin @ the alley~ watchin his father n his frens walkin up n down...waited frm 6+ till like 8+ dear came~ wif some of his frens (actually some of his frens r workin for his dad~) had CHAR SIEW + roasted meat for dinner~ was kinda havin a little fun coz was like helpin to push the trolleys n pushcarts (erm...actually i oso dunno wad to call them) ard...up n down frm 4th to 1st~! *haha* then to n fro~ wif his frens, bro uncle n dad ard...kinda fun~ *haha* but the bad ting was tt i was kinda in n outta loo 3times~ maybe due to wad i ate for lunch (~_~)

sianz ah sianz~! sat was plain rottin away~ browsin thru HerWorld tt i bought on thurs n didnt have time to read it tt day... *hmm* saw many tings tt i like...but super ex~! (~_~) guess the only ting i can afford is the pair of $50 teardrop earrings~ *sobz* anyway i dun feel like buyin anytin~ i dun even feel like doin my hair though my appointment's tis comin sun~ *haiz*


-=: MODE OF LOST :=-


dear was sick for 2 days~ didnt went home for dinner coz dear wasnt feelin well n my mum~ i tink she's super angry bout it~! (~_~) muz find a way to pacify her when i go home tis weekend (-_-")

dear didnt went to work ytd n i threw up an hr+ later after my lunch~! *sobz* dunno y only me~ 2 of my colleagues oso ate curry puffs frm the same stall but y they didnt have any probs?! i threw up...n in da end went home~ n the taxi driver keep steppin on the brakes~! which makes me wanna puked even more~! n i threw up straight when i reach dear's house~! *puked* after restin for awhile (didnt even chaged out) went to thomson plaza wif dear~ + audrey n her bro~ well...dear need to buy a mouse n we bought one which is tini-wini small~! slightly bigger than a lighter...how does tt sounds? *haha* super small lor~! didnt really slp late last night~

tis mornin keep runnin to the loo~ didnt go work again~ (~_~) dun give a damn now~

gettin more n more mixed feelins recently~ tinkin of a particular ting but will somehow drift to tinkin of another ting....crapz~! n now even takin a drink i need to take a long time to tink...tink of wad i shd drink, cold or hot? sweet or not sweet? mann~ i'm really gettin more n more confused~ how bout future?! i need a perm job asap~ i need $$$ somehow....i need tt someone to b wif me~ but when i needed him the most, where is he? i dunno if i can rely on him spiritually, mentally, or physically *ponders*


-=: MODE OF CONFUSION :=-





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